She insists “You don’t want me anymore.” He questions “Are you sure you’re not cheating on me?” They would rightfully deny whenever the assumptions would come up in petty arguments. But gradually, the words would manifest into actions. After all, it’s been echoed for too long without a proper attempt to disarm each partner’s mentality. So she still believes she’s not enough to be loved this wholeheartedly. He still believes he’s not worthy to experience romance bathed in fidelity. They both failed to take time to heal, and the connection established during the early stages of romance had to eventually pay the price. Ways were parted.
It’s been years and they’ve learned to find meaning in why they once entertained agony. His self-esteem has once been built up again. He now trusts without boundaries. It’s quite spiritual because the woman he is now in an exclusive relationship with matches up mystically with his energy. And in truth, she has also been through one flawed relationship after the other. But she woke up one morning and never looked back. It took years to find herself, to find the God in her. It’s no surprise that their divine pairing has resulted in a complete alignment of energy that propels them to flourish across chosen endeavors. There’s peace and purpose in their unity. There’s Proverbs 20:5.
You see, his newfound romance strengthens in the right direction, but the fascinating thing about life is that when choices are about to be made, God will allow distractions to surface so you can prove what you value. And indeed his ex-partner resurfaces. Thoughts of intimacy cloud the mind. He must have forgotten that intimacy is a by-product of great connection, not a substitute for connection. He must have failed to recall that the moment in front of him is not what’s distracting him; he’s rather distracting himself in front of the moment. So he falls prey to the temptation. Saddening how his current partner who took years to find herself is hurt once again, broken. Pathetic how intimacy with his ex-partner is ephemeral because familiarity indeed breeds contempt. So the cycle continues; it’s romance matters.
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